Every lonely night
I look to the stars for guidance
As i always have
But this time something is different
Something is wrong
The brightest, most radiant star of them all
You
Has flickered out
Dissolved
From the center of my favorite constellation

I keep stupidly searching the sky
Stars don't just vanish, i'm losing my mind
But no matter how many times i try
That dark empty wound is all i can find
Now all the other stars seem to swirl around
Blur together
The cosmos themselves are confounded
Or maybe it's just the tears in my eyes

and you don't even realize
How the beautiful light of your voice and your smile
Was the very warmth of my day
And the comfort i clung to in the cold of the night

You gave me a purpose
Clearer than ive ever known
Something to wish for
Something to work for
Something i thought was attainable
But the stars are suspended
Out of reach for a reason

At what cost
Now i'm lost
On a flimsy raft
In the middle of a deep dark ocean
I had my heart set on a destination that's been wiped off the map
Where do i turn now
Or do i stay in this spot and let myself sink
Deepe
Darker
Where is the bottom
My emotions and navigational systems
Hopelessly scrambled
Tumbled through the torrent
see , i had my compass tuned to you
Your magnetic charm made a perfect magnetic north
I was always pulled to you
My days were planned around you
And i thought you felt it too
But opposites attract
And now i see
Your intentions were the opposite of mine
It was nothing but a lie
And i still don't know why
But you-
I-
Sigh

The whirlpool churns and spirals
The compass spins in frantic circles
Searching for a way out
It finds none
Because it can't find you
Youre out there somewhere i know you are
Watching me drowning from afar
What happened to all your patience and care
You act like i was never there
How is it that even as you leave me for dead
There's a not-so-little voice inside of my head
That wants to believe
That the star will return
That my beacon will blink back
Even brighter and more brilliant
And bring a dawn to the eternal night
Because every star is a distant sunrise

Turns out the stars can shift in the sky
Turns out the poles of the earth
Sometimes reverse
Turns out the people i love always leave eventually
Turns out ive never quite been alright